Monday, September 14, 2009

Yesterday was ''Possessory Day'' as suggested by Dwaejee, a week after the disastrous monster attack the realm. Bwahaha. Anyway only a week left before getting to meet up the Badakz members at the clubhouse. Been cleaning and polishing the clubhouse (the gate's not grey anymore! it's white!!!). Last Friday had ZOOM! Ramadhan at Geylang with SC members. Farah and me cannot tahan seeing them running around finding Chendol. (I said drink made with coconut milk guys! Not milk drink called Kathirah!) And all those food during break fast....Enough to feed 2 generation of SC. Watching Family Outing. hahaha....Cannot tahan Daesung's jokester smile. Too bad the guy's recuperating now. And what happened to KPOP? First Dongbang filing lawsuit, next, Jaebeom quits 2PM. Come on antis, by doing all these, you're hurting the artist, the fans, the management and also yourselves. I hope all HOTTEST! out there, be strong for 2PM. I have a hunch he'll come back. HE MUST COME BACK.

12:37 PM

Sunday, September 6, 2009

These few days have been damn bored with just studying for ECM. Went for iftar at Jurong Green CC and then continuing at Macdonalds. Missed out on buying Happy Meal cause I really want that Doraemon toy.Been addicted to gaming lately.Playing into late nights, discussing strategies with fellow gamers. How I wish I can make a career out of playing games.Hehe.

Miss my Badakz members. Mum planned to go Bukit Merah to help Cik Pah put up the curtains and dad wants to do a complete spring cleaning over there. And I kind of hate watching tv now. That widescreen,high resolution thingy seems to make those in the tv look wider. When I say wider, it's really serious. Seeing Kangin on screen shocked me that my fingers seemed to curl. On the bright side, SNSD's well-known ''long,slender legs in hotpants'' seem to look as though there's cellulite on them.Hehe.

7:09 AM

Monday, August 31, 2009

Been feeling lethargic lately. Events after events. Thank god for Mrs Junsu-ne calendar that is keeping me sane. Daily kisses to my 5 boys are enough to supplement my energy level for the day. Yet still worried about the lawsuit.

Anyway AADBSK3 rocks! Junsu's failed attempt at english and the boys antics makes me cry of laughter. Picture of Me mv really makes me cry.

Excos planning for a raya trip. And also a graduation trip. Maybe Bangkok or Genting. Yays!!! Gonna torture Aaron and Aisyah to ride roller coaster.

Been on kpop hiatus and busy with Thriller and Beat It mass dance. Seeing Hisham's squidward-style shake...BWAHAHA.

Today surprisingly (actually it was a shocking revelation) Dennis came back for a short visit!!! Totally screamed like HELL! Damn, I miss this bitch. Gonna meet up at his house later. Then can relive memories with our Uno stacko,korean dramas marathon and muchii talks with Jason(if he doesn't sleep all day due to his clubbing sessions). But sadly its fasting month, so no bitching and gossiping with my 2 bitches over a cup of caramel macchiato(Dennis), caramel frappucino(me) and decaf iced-latte (Jason).

Missing my badakz, my 18 boys, my freetime, my cash.~~

Loving every minute spending time with Dennis.....

10:53 PM

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Fuh~~~ the tidal waves has subsided, with ''ALWAYS KEEP THE FAITH'' etched deep in my heart.

Events has been a great success without a single hiccups.Everybody had fun with endless rounds of food, music and laughter.Though it was a bit rushed in the wee hours of morning, I can see the teamwork gushing out from the group.

Yesterday, had a fun day with fellow Cassies. Went to Kallang in the morning. Met some new friends. Charlotte, Yorklyn, Hui Yu etc. After that meet the rest of the comm members at Indoor Stadium. Had to learn the dance steps before the fans came. After they came, could see that some were restless due to the cold weather. Had to bring out my leadership power to gather their attention cause some members seems restless too.We're supposed to do the HAHAHA video to cheer on dongbang and other cassies.All the members including me wore the giordano ''Cheer Up!'' white t-shirt that Jaejoong wore. Taught them the steps one-by-one. Glad I could help the comm members as it's my very first event with them. After that had some photoshoot session. Then went to have late lunch at Kallang Leisure Park.Had chit-chat sessions with Yorklyn, Legra and Charlotte. Even though the main comm members seemed tired, their presence made me feel at home. They made us, the sub members feel very welcomed.And later on, each of us wrote a message to Dongbang in a book. We'll be sending it to the boys soon. And for the first time, I felt a sense of belonging. No need to restrain myself when talking about dongbang, cause each of them are as crazy as me. Jessica even scared me when I made a typo error in the message. ''Aww! Junsu won't read your message!'' and everybody laughed. After that take a look around Sol Mart. Had to fight the urge from buying that 1 kilo of fresh kimchi imported directly from korea.

Btw happy belated birthday Mrs Junsu-ne! How was Korea?

7:54 PM

Sunday, August 2, 2009

My heart is in a state of turmoil. Jaejoong, Junsu, Yoochun and their representatives are meting SM representatives now, discussing about the issue that I really don't want to talk about. There will be an official press coference tomorrow. Praying for a miracle. My heart sank upon hearing that *d.i.s.b.a.n.d* word. I don't want that to happen. I love them. No. WE, CASSIOPEIAS love them. They're the sole of our lives. I don't know what will happen to the sea of red. Where will it go if it happens? I can't look back. I'm chasing my dream. I missed nenek and kak lela now. She's over at our beloved land. I have no one to cry with regarding this issue. I can't rest. My heart keeps beating. But thank god for my fellow cassies. HAVE FAITH IN THEM. KEEP THE FAITH...is what I've been hearing for the past 24 hours. We love you Jaejoong. We love you Yunho. We love you Yoochun. We love you Junsu. We love you Changmin. And last but not least, WE LOVE YOU DONG BANG SHIN KI.

7:58 PM

Thursday, July 23, 2009

It was a big mistake. All it take was an alluring pair of eyes that penetrate deep into my soul, and I was wasted. Tears drop and all I knew is that many secrets were out. Your actions had me scarred deeply. I wanted no listening ear or a shoulder to lean on. But you forced it all out, giving me endless pain. I've always wanted to hate you.But Im getting used to it.It gets exhausting to see you being a wandering soul.I tried to erase you.But then I just can't. All I wanted is to erase you from my memories. All I make was a confession, but I ended breaking my own heart. A love, frozen in time, can be painful but am I willing to wait any longer? Mianhae, I'm too selfish to wait any longer. But you're the only one that has a permanent place in this battered heart.

1:28 AM

Friday, July 17, 2009

It's too much. I've given up. I can't bear the pain of waiting any longer. I was there when you fall. I was there when those countless girls crushed your pathetic heart. And now I bid farewell. Cause I am never gonna be there for you. You're the reason that I feel so alive. But not anymore. No more shoulders for you to come crying to. No more warm hands to wipe your tears away. No more abusive words spewing out towards me when you vent your anger. I've waited too long.

Farewell...

4:30 PM